Month: May 2011

Silver lining

I am getting distracted more than ever. I’m supposed to submit three press releases today and edit some academic paper, write two essays… and my laptop has not been cooperating until now. Since I installed a new anti-virus software recently–courtesy of my husband–it just started doing crazy things. Really, of all the brands he’d buy, I couldn’t understand why he didn’t choose the one I have previously been using. I got very frustrated, since I didn’t have time to go out and find an Internet shop where I could work, especially not in the evening and with two little girls in tow. Anyway, I only have a few hours left or less than a day before TAT (turn around time). I’d better get going now before I start failing everyone including myself. I’m just blogging to breathe and give some update. For one, my dear little Z took an exam this morning at a renowned Montessori school in the area. The result? Really good! Her mathematical abilities are way advanced to place her in Nursery level despite the fact that it’ll be her first time to …

Remembering my role

I don’t have much experience in declining a job offer, but I’m starting to gain now fast. As soon as I have completed my profile in oDesk recently and started applying for jobs that are really suitable to my skills, I started getting good responses, even invitations to an interview that include messages saying how much they’d like to have me apply for the job they’re posting. Honestly, I never thought that could happen to me–certainly not on oDesk where many freelancers who are just starting out get easily frustrated either because no one would hire them (being new, maybe) or the compensation offerred is just too low that it’s insulting. (Yes, it happened to me too.) When I think about money, I’d like to take on their offers. But I have to be realistic. I don’t have much time to work on numerous projects. In fact, I have just turned down the job I was so excited about the past few weeks because the training did not take place immediately as expected and my schedule has also unexpectedly changed recently. …

Grey is the color of death

May 25. We’re celebrating my husband’s 33rd birthday today. However, instead of being happy all day, my daughters and I have a foreboding sense of death. The first and only dog our family ever had seems to be dying. Her name is Katya, and I can still remember my little Z picking her over a litter of much cuter puppies being sold in the sidewalk of Alabang last December. (Honestly though, if she could have it her way, we’d take home all the pups!) Katya was already five weeks old then according to the vendor. We named her Katya–one of my suggestions–because her color’s exactly the same as the sack cloth (i.e., in katya or katsa in Tagalog), which was sort of dirty white. Katya has always been a playful and active dog. She has a very good temper and friendly to almost everyone. In fact, once you get past her size, you would realize that there’s nothing to fear about her. It was rather frustrating that she doesn’t make a good guard dog at …

Looking for the perfect helper

A helper is supposed to help make your life comfortable by assisting you in getting things done. But if you’re not careful, she/he could also make your life miserable. Why I’m looking for a maid I’m a full-time mom with two young daughters, a graduate student attending a very prestigious (and expensive) university through a scholarship, a home-based worker without a maid to at least help me with the house chores, and without a husband (because he works in another country) to help me supervise, entertain, reassure, and discipline my growing up girls. And yes, I live very far from my parents; my nearest relative is my eldest brother who still won’t count as living near my area. I’ve been managing on my own by the grace of God for nearly a year now, which makes me wonder why I am looking for a helper now. My girls and I have been doing okay so far without assistance, aren’t we? Well, yes, to some extent, that is. My husband says that I get a maid to keep us company and to make sure that there’s someone who …

Missing and wishing

I have just finished looking at my friend Michelle’s photos on Facebook. She and seven other travellers came together to visit Patagonia. She took great pictures and the sceneries were simply breathtaking. And to think I never thought such place with such name existed until she posted her albums! As I was looking at her pictures, a few things came to my mind. First, how blessed she is to be able to travel to such places. I wonder if God would ever allow me (with my family) to see such places too, and if yes, I wonder when that would happen. Although I am happy for her–after the painful divorce she had to deal with last year, she certainly needs a break, and a fabulous one such as this–I must admit that I am also envious of my friend’s travel escapades. To be able to travel and see the world would always be one of my dreams and prayers yet to be answered by God. The other thing I realized was that I’ve missed my friend and our highschool group very much. She was one of my best …

Open house

Like most mornings this summer vacation, my daughters and I woke up late. However, this day was sort of different. I woke up to the smell of fish being fried as well as voices–so many unfamiliar voices. Both were coming from our neighbor, whose house is separated from ours by a mere wall of hollow blocks. For such a small family like ours and a house nearly the same size as ours, their home is always filled with people, especially on weekends. At night, even on weekdays, you would always hear them singing on their videoke like they are doing now with their guests. Somehow, this scenario–except for the videoke part–reminded me so much of my early childhood days, especially when my family was still living in Manila. My parents are probably the most generous and helpful people I’ve ever known. Many of our relatives from the province who would like to have a taste of Manila or find their destinies in the city would always first stay with us until they could finally make it …

Full-time mommy gets a new full-time home-based job

I got a phone call at around 6 am today, inviting me to a virtual conference with prospective clients/employers. Two hours later, I found myself online at Skype, sharing things about my employment background, etc. To make it short, I just got hired. I’ll be working on a new account starting next week. I was thrilled to hear it, especially that I did not expect it at all. In fact, all I could think of during the call was to go back to bed. But, as always, I’m open to both new challenges and the idea of getting an extra income. However, a nagging voice tells me that it might not work out again, like my last job, for the same reason: although it’s home-based, it’s still a full-time job and I might get so cranky again, put my health in line, and miss spending time with my girls so much. Not to mention lose focus on my graduate studies. Since God brought me to it, however, I’d like to think that every thing will turn out well. After all, I’ve been …

Odd girl out

Part I – Elementary school days I woke up the other day with Mr. Big‘s songs in my head. It must be because of the band’s recent concert in Manila, which  I was not able to attend. Bummer! Nevertheless, I still enjoyed the night, staying up late as I looked up Mr. Big’s videos on YouTube. I have to admit that their music evoked a mixed emotion and endless memories of my childhood. They reminded me most of my elementary school days and how much I felt like I was the odd one in class. I’m not exactly sad about being that way, but I have to admit that were days when I sometimes wished that I were popular in class. After all, I was pretty popular and had many so friends in our neighborhood then. Besides, now that decades had passed, my elementary batchmates couldn’t seem to get enough of having reunions or mini gatherings lately, and I couldn’t seem to enjoy much being with them because I was never really close to most of …

Mother’s Day

Yesterday, I was awakened by text messages from both fellow moms and single friends wishing me a Happy Mother’s Day. And as I went online, I realized that just about every person I know had the same message on their walls. Many of them even replaced their profile pictures with their mothers’ faces. I was wondering though, don’t they ever show appreciation toward their mothers except on Mother’s Day? I had also thought about replacing my profile picture with my mother, just like everyone else. However, I decided against it. My reason was simple. One, my mother’s gone. Two, when she was alive, I made sure she knew how much I needed and appreciated her. I don’t have to tell the whole world how much I loved her just because it’s Mother’s Day. Moreover, to my dear friends or people who know me better, my mother had also been a mother to them. They knew I need not join the bandwagon. As I went through the day, I began to think about my late mother and the influence she …

Revisiting the Manila Ocean Park

Summer vacation’s already halfway through–at least here in the Philippines–and while my girls feel that they still haven’t done enough, I am worried that I’ve already indulged them so much. Let’s see… we go to the malls almost each time they feel like it. We’ve been shopping and dining out, depending on the extra money we have on hand. So far, they’ve had dance lessons–a crash course on ballet and Hawaiian–and have already performed before a crowd at the mall for their first ever dance recital. When we’re home, they would stay all day in their mini pool, which I usually set up in the veranda, and they would even invite some of their friends over. If not, they would stay inside the house, watch TV or movies on DVD, play with their toys, read their books, do various art activities, or just sleep. Sometimes, when it’s not so sunny, I let them go out and run around the neighborhood or on scooters with their playmates. And on other days, the three of us would head to a …