Month: July 2012

Claiming God’s promises

Have you ever experienced praying so hard for something to happen, then finally, when the first sign appears that what you’ve been praying for is about to come true, you start to laugh at the idea then cower, wondering if it’s really happening, while panic swells inside of you as you remember that nothing’s impossible with God and your life is about to change forever? Well, not just your life, but your loved ones’ as well? I know! It’s crazy, right? Well, that’s exactly how I feel now. And I couldn’t help relating my situation to Abraham‘s wife Sarah for the first time, when she laughed at the thought that her deepest desire to become a mother was about to come true, at the age when she was already way, way past the age of childbearing… However, I have also wondered about the various what ifs, like, what if I mess up along the way and God would change His mind, suddenly declaring that it’s not yet time, that was just a teaser? Or, oops! Wrong move (attitude), go back to Start? I can tell that God’s leading …

Rebuilding bridges, tearing down walls

In my youth, I loved to explore new things, meet new friends, and never seemed to be afraid of anything. I had always welcomed change as if it’s as easy as changing one’s clothes several times in a day. I looked forward to meeting new people and would actually go out of my way to meet new friends. In fact, when I was in college, my motivation for coming to school was to be with my friends and meet new people instead of learning in class. Recently, however, I realized that I had started to succumb to withdrawal to a certain extent. When my mother died, I decided that it would be better for my children and myself to move away; when my relationship with my in-laws went bad, again, I have decided to live in an area where I knew only one person; when some of my close friends moved away or the communication between us had ceased for some reason, I had also stopped going out and/or making new friends; and when some of my relatives could not grant my requests for some reason or would break a promise, I would sulk and stay away from …