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The wisdom in putting God first

Lately, I have been reading about and hearing married couples profess that they love God first and foremost, then their spouses, and finally their children–yes, in that order. And I often wondered how that is possible. You see, I never fully understood how or why it should be that way, particularly for a married person. For me, it has always been loving God as a married woman means loving my husband first, then my children. If I do not prioritize and honor my husband before anybody else, then I am not really serving and loving God and vice versa. This afternoon, as I accidentally discovered that my husband is getting addicted again to online games–so much that he spends money on them, buying stuff online via PayPal on a rather weekly basis since last month–I was reminded of these couples’ testimony once more. The fact that he would call me first before he buys a small bottle of perfume or a nice pair of shoes, but kept small but repeated purchases from me raised a …

Promises

On May 3, we’ll be celebrating little Z’s 6th birthday and that’s the day after hubby arrives. I have already started preparing for Z’s mini ice cream party, which hubby and I have promised her. It will be held at home, and the girls are getting more excited each day. They keep on rewriting their guest list even if they always end up with the same friends to invite. I myself have created a list of other things to prepare for the big day and have already purchased a few items on my list. I can tell that my husband‘s very excited to come home too. He has been frequenting the malls in Singapore for various stuffs that he’d be bringing home to us as presents. He was also absent from work twice this month already for no particular reason–a sign that his mind was no longer on his job, and to think that he’s the sort who could easily bag a model employee award for his dedication to work! However, excitement is not the only emotion …

Leading my child to Christ

One of the most challenging roles that I have to face as a mother is imparting my faith to my children. I am a Christian mom. Yes, I am! But, no, I do not always proclaim this aloud for fear that the unbelievers around me would not take my testimony seriously if they ever witness me sinning. However, what good is being a Christian without shedding Christ‘s light unto the world? Last night, my daughters and I watched “The Passion of the Christ” on our DVD player. However, only my 7-year old girl and I stayed up to watch it; Z, four, dozed off a few minutes after the film started. And to my surprise, my eldest daughter A cried almost the whole time we were watching it. I didn’t realize that the movie would have so much impact to her. Every time the Christ was beaten, she would wail. I was actually afraid that the neighbors might think I was hitting my daughter or something. Well, she sure had a good cry, and her questions just kept on …

Being a mom and playing mom

The past two to three months had been the busiest months for me although not necessarily the most productive. I started working from home on a full-time basis and even received an income that was higher than I used to have when I was working outside of home. I loved my job, but as much as I hate to admit it,  that same job had cost me a lot. Way too much, in fact. I had less (quality) time with my children, I had to drop one of my graduate courses, I was always late in my submission of requirements in my remaining class, even my daughter’s grades were affected, and my children and I had become sickly. I am first and foremost a m-o-t-h-e-r. I always try to remind myself of this when I start to get busy, when I start to work only for money. Indeed, as much as my family needed the extra income, I should never forget my duties to my family, especially to my children whose father is away. With my …

The Battle is the Lord’s

To others, my marriage may seem very pitiful. No matter how hard I try, it seems that things will never be the same again. I only end up hurting myself in the process. Something tells me it’s time for me to move on, with or without my lawful husband. This is another battle for me, much bigger than I ever had before. It’s a recurring issue, and I feel like I’m on the losing end. I’ve nothing else to do but to leave it as well to the Lord’s hands. I shall always count on Him to handle things that are way beyond my control. As much as I try to deal with my husband’s past, his unruly relatives, and my own mistakes, with humility and patience, I feel like there’s nothing else I can do now except become the lady-in-waiting. That is, wait for my husband to come around as I diligently do my roles as a mother and a wife–even without a husband to appreciate me. Looking back, I’ve had issues with God …

Bitter or better?

September 11, 2009. I’m currently reading a Chicken Soup for the Soul edition for moms, which also happens to be a recipe book.  And, as I came across one of the stories, a line simply stuck to my mind:  “In life, you always have a choice.  You either become bitter or better.” Of course, I’d prefer to become better at any given day.  Yet, sad to say, I admit that I can’t help but give in to bitterness at times.  As I see my mother lay in bed, devoid of strength and sometimes even sanity and hope because of cancer, I can’t help but wail to God.  Why her, of all people?  Why my own mother who has always been a pillar of strength to me?  Why her who knew nothing but to give me everything that I need without expecting anything in return?  Why her who took care of me as well as my husband and daughters, especially in times of need? I wonder if it’s God’s way to spite a family member who has theorized …