All posts tagged: Christmas

Delaying Christmas

Soon it shall be Christmas. However, instead of feeling giddy about it, excitedly counting the days as I used to do when I was a child, I am now wishing I could postpone it. It would be our third Christmas without my mother and my husband to celebrate with us. Of course, you must already know that my dear mama’s already gone, while my husband is working in another country. I can’t wait for my husband to celebrate Christmas again with us! I long for the day when time and money would no longer get in the way, when physical distance could easily be bridged… I know I shouldn’t complain because my family is still blessed in so many ways no matter how I look at it. Yes, I am grateful for what we have, for all the things that I have now. It’s just that having hubby with us during the merry month of December would be so much nicer though and that could make my daughters the happiest little girls on Christmas. I …

Hello, November!

I could no longer recall the last time I felt excited about this month. I used to count the days and months until November when I was a child, but during the past few years, I just started to dread it. I was born in November, so that explains the excitement I used to feel when the month gets nearer. Plus, the fact that after November, it would soon be Christmas. However, with the marital problems I had in the recent years, including financial difficulties, the death of my mother, estranged relationships with in-laws, moving out of my parents’ house, seeing friends go and change jobs or leave the country, somehow, I started to feel like there’s really nothing to celebrate each year. I just felt alone, save for my children who would find ways to cheer me up every day. Things are still not all well with me now, actually, but my excitement grows, especially with my young daughters counting off the days until the twelfth. I’ve been trying to come up with a plan …

Dealing with my child’s bully

I just realized that it’s been nearly two weeks since I have last written anything–a blog, a work assignment article, etc. I did write a long letter to my daughter’s School Directress earlier, however, since she had encountered another bullying incident with her long-time perpetrator. Last year, the same kid bullied my daughter by pushing her off her chair and punching her on the arm. This time, the boy has been playing with her school stuffs, taking her money, and even put hand sanitizer on her drinking water. I just couldn’t take it anymore! So much that I have already brought my daughter to a martial arts school for trial lessons. Tomorrow would be her second day to try Wing Tsun and if things go well, I shall finally enroll her next weekend. I have the school to blame since they apparently did not take seriously the case I presented to them last year–my daughter’s first bullying experience with that child. I strongly believed that if they had taken all the necessary actions to educate …

2011: A continuation and a new beginning

My girls and I welcomed the new year rather differently this year. Quiet, in fact. We’re all alone, away from my father and the rest of my relatives, and for the first time, away from my husband, too. I had been hoping that we could at least simultaneously celebrate it with our loved ones, virtually. Yet no one else seemed to be online, except for my husband who refused to take our invitations to video calls. Well, so much for the hope of starting over again, having a stronger family bond this year. I suppose he is still nursing a wound that I had stupidly inflicted on him a year ago. We have had good times since he learned about my little sin; in fact, he even sent me expensive gifts of perfumes and flashy mobile phones, as well as Swiss and Belgian dark chocolates both for our 7th church wedding anniversary and my birthday. He also came home for our eldest daughter’s last birthday and we all enjoyed being together as a family in …

32 years and a few minutes

  I’m not sure whether I should feel excited about celebrating my birthday later. I’ll be 33 at exactly 6:30 AM, 12 November 2010. For the second time, I’ll be celebrating my birthday without a mother to greet me warmly as soon as I wake up. And I guess I just have to get used to that. I also have to live with the fact now that although wonderful changes had taken place in my marriage, well, my husband’s not around for me to share the day with him. I wish November 13’s my birthday, and not tomorrow.   Why? For one, I get to celebrate a birthday on a Friday the Thirteenth! Yeah, right, as if that matters! Seriously, I just wish it won’t take place soon. Because I am in such a mess right now. I have a deadline to beat, a house to clean the moment I wake up, and a daughter to send to school very early in the morning, when all I want to do is wake up late, have a …

A different Christmas

It was a different Christmas, all right.  Mama’s gone, it’s just ‘us’ who celebrated it.  After a few years of spending Christmas with my in-laws, my own family spent it again with my father, my siblings, and my siblings’ families at my parents’ house in Las Pinas. For the first time, my no longer estranged husband did all the Noche Buena preparations since I had to go to work even on Christmas eve–another first for me, by the way, since I had always found a way to evade compulsory work during holidays.  I suppose it was good for him to be the one to do the food preparations and cooking all by himself… at least, my family would see that he has finally turned a new leaf.  And, I think that he indeed has.  He’s finding ways now to spend time with me and our daughters, and it’s so much easier to ask him to do something for us.  He seems eager to please us and he seems able to control his temper much better, too.  …