All posts tagged: motherhood

Ramblings of a tired mom

Sorting out my convoluted thoughts

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Not quite a mom

It’s Sunday. Instead of having a relaxing evening, I’m nursing disappointment and frustration. This is not how I envisioned any of my days or nights as a mom. When I was younger, I had seen myself as nothing but a nurturing, sweet, loving, and capable mom. Now, however, I question myself whether I am any of those, whether I should have been a mom at all… why God allowed me to be a mom. Lately, I tend to lose my temper at the slightest hint of disrespect and disobedience, and discipline my children, especially my eldest, out of anger. I tend to say harsh words (as opposed to spanking) in my attempt to make her understand that I am very, very displeased with what she had just said or done (or not done). In the end, it would look like I have won and have broken her spirit, but the truth is, it would probably be much easier to contend with a child with a broken bone than one with a broken spirit only to …

What makes you happy?

  Today is the U.N. International Day of Happiness. This is the first time I’ve heard of such a celebration, but I’m happy there’s one nevertheless. I first saw it on Instagram earlier today, when someone hash tagged his post, and it made me start thinking of the things that make me happy. Off the top of my head, here are 20 of them: 1. Seeing my children grow in the knowledge of the LORD and being bold enough to share about Jesus to other kids; 2. Receiving a hug, a kiss, or a gift, especially from people close to me; 3. Being with my family and friends, and serving them a delicious meal or desert (and getting compliments for it); 4. Accomplishing a task (it doesn’t matter if it’s as mundane as cleaning the bathroom); 5. Receiving stuff in the mail, such as post cards, letters, and packages (including things I’ve bought online!); 6. Having enough time to myself during the day to do some of my hobbies, such as reading, writing, taking photos, and trying …

Mommy Break

Have you ever watched a movie that’s supposed to be funny, but you end up crying instead? That’s how it was while I was watching “Mom’s Night Out” online. Thanks to our complimentary one free movie a month on Clickplay (for being PLDT MyDSL subscriber), I just saw it for the third time since last Sunday. I normally let my daughters pick the movies we’d watch, but this time, I insisted on the said movie. Maybe because I felt that I needed it. I needed a good laugh, I needed to de-stress, relax, especially after a meltdown. Seriously. Besides, how many “mommy movies” are there, anyway?It wasn’t what I had expected though – to just be funny and no more. I didn’t expect that having my life portrayed in front of me, my idiosyncrasies, frustrations, secret desires, would be poignantly portrayed right before my eyes. It’s crazy! I must be getting crazy. I was both laughing and crying the whole time I was watching the movie. My youngest daughter was probably wondering what was happening to …

Why I do volunteer work and why you should consider doing it, too

I remember the night before I attended the first Vision Gathering of Saddleback Church South Manila. These were actually the words that I typed in my (other) digital diary: It’s past midnight now, and yes, I’m still wide awake. I recently received an invitation to volunteer, to work with fellow Christians, former church mates to set up a ministry in the South. I have been thinking about serving in a ministry, yearning so much for it, but I wasn’t sure where or how. All I know is it doesn’t necessarily have to be directly connected with the church I am currently attending. As for what to do and which of my talents or skills to use, I’m sure I’ll figure out what God would want me to do along the way. Who knows, He might reveal to me another area of strength I never knew existed before. I’m sure it’s going to be fun; even if it would entail hard work, it would be fulfilling. At the end of the day, I would want to …