All posts tagged: Relationships

The Ice Castles and what it means to me

It’s Sunday once more, and we’re staying home. Weather is bad and I think the girls could use some rest after our activities yesterday. I decided to do some painting, using my daughters’ book on nursery rhymes for some inspiration. I must say I was doing just fine, I was happy with my work, until my youngest daughter came to Fox Family Movies channel on TV, where the movie Ice Castles (2010) was being shown.   I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen Ice Castles before–I simply can’t remember any more. And each time I see it, I can’t help but cry. Like in the past, I had to stop what I was doing earlier and sit with my daughter to watch it, trying so hard to keep myself from crying but to no avail. I would have cried a river if my daughter wasn’t with me, you know? To keep myself a little distracted, I took photos of the screen and ate some cake. Ha! Like that really helped somehow. Does the …

Rebuilding bridges, tearing down walls

In my youth, I loved to explore new things, meet new friends, and never seemed to be afraid of anything. I had always welcomed change as if it’s as easy as changing one’s clothes several times in a day. I looked forward to meeting new people and would actually go out of my way to meet new friends. In fact, when I was in college, my motivation for coming to school was to be with my friends and meet new people instead of learning in class. Recently, however, I realized that I had started to succumb to withdrawal to a certain extent. When my mother died, I decided that it would be better for my children and myself to move away; when my relationship with my in-laws went bad, again, I have decided to live in an area where I knew only one person; when some of my close friends moved away or the communication between us had ceased for some reason, I had also stopped going out and/or making new friends; and when some of my relatives could not grant my requests for some reason or would break a promise, I would sulk and stay away from …

The Battle is the Lord’s

To others, my marriage may seem very pitiful. No matter how hard I try, it seems that things will never be the same again. I only end up hurting myself in the process. Something tells me it’s time for me to move on, with or without my lawful husband. This is another battle for me, much bigger than I ever had before. It’s a recurring issue, and I feel like I’m on the losing end. I’ve nothing else to do but to leave it as well to the Lord’s hands. I shall always count on Him to handle things that are way beyond my control. As much as I try to deal with my husband’s past, his unruly relatives, and my own mistakes, with humility and patience, I feel like there’s nothing else I can do now except become the lady-in-waiting. That is, wait for my husband to come around as I diligently do my roles as a mother and a wife–even without a husband to appreciate me. Looking back, I’ve had issues with God …